Hi, I'm Kara, and I am just starting recovery.  I feel scared and alone, and depressed.  I do go to treatment several days per week, but still need more.  I cannot talk openly at home about my addiction to pain meds, and alcohol.  I have anxiety and depression.  Nothing I do seems helpful.  I am looking for a new job(I'm a nurse), and don't feel ready, however need the money.  This is something I never thought would happen to me...I always did the right thing..why is this happening?  I feel like I've lost all my self-worth.  I need a place to turn fast, when the compulsion to use comes.  All replies welcome, please don't try to take advantage of my state, this has happened before, by a male online stalker and almost destroyed me.