During every single meeting of AA and NA and all the other meetings with an “A” behind it, they talk about a higher power. It says in the second step and throughout the big book, a “god of our understanding”. As well stating, “Believing in a God as we understand HIM”.
I have been to hundreds of meeting in different cities and different states, there is always those few people who let you know about how there is no god and that it is not a HIM. The person who usually complains about it is either, the yoga teacher, the gay guy with skinny jeans, the ex-priest or the newcomer.
I was in a meeting in Philadelphia where while I was sitting there texting a friend this older flamboyant man was raising his voice about his higher power. Now usually I wouldn’t look up as someone was talking about his higher power, but I got so intrigued when he told us who his higher power was. This man’s higher power was the gay queen herself, Cher!
Right when I heard that I dropped my phone and looked up. I didn’t know if he was serious or if he was joking around. As he was sharing and no one else was laughing but me, I realized that he was 100% serious. Also the best part about this was that this man was 5 years sober, so I guess Cher can keep a gay man sober.
After the meeting and that share I made that meeting my home group, I was surrounded by gay men who I loved and the most interesting stories I have ever heard in the rooms. So for that man and his partner Cher was their high power.
Now we get to the LA meeting in which when it comes time to share, the skinny anorexic yoga teacher would like to state her opinion on how sexiest AA is and that they should take HIM out of the big book describing god. I guess when you haven’t eaten for 15 days and all you do is the downward dog, small stuff like wording get to you!
Now I do not care who someone describes their higher power, or choices what or who their higher power is, but for god sake some people should just keep their thoughts to themselves. If you walk in to the AA rooms and are a new comer, and are totally open to the “higher power” idea I give you a pat on the back. Everyone goes through the whole there is no god, or higher power phase, I was in that phase for about 2 years.
All joking aside it was not until accepted a higher power of my understanding did I find true happiness in my recovery process. Be open to the idea that there is something greater then yourself, you do not have to accept it right away, but the sooner you do the happier you will become!